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Being a Parent
We all know how exciting it is to become a parent. If we have not had kids ourselves we have experienced a friend or family member becoming a parent and felt their excitement. Unfortunately, I have moved so far past that mode of life that I am on the extreme other side of the issue. I am now dealing with "the empty nest" and the angry teenager phases of life.
If you have not experienced this yet or you were lucky enough to not have a clue what I am talking about, I am jealous. I have always been so very extrememly proud of my kids. They have never gotten into any trouble (that I know of and I am very involved) They were basically easy to raise. I always had an idea that if it was too easy in the beginning, it must get harder. Lately it has definately gotten harder.
My daughter, who is usually an angel to me has been difficult to talk to. Everytime we spend anytime together anymore we argue. She seems to have no respect for my feelings or my time. I have turned into her taxi driver or I just give her the car. For example, last night I take her to her band practice, a three hour outing. Since I feel that it is too far to drive back and forth, or to allow her to drive there alone yet, I always find something to do for the 3 hours. Last night I got there 15 minutes early. I was so happy that she quickly realized that I was there and got into the car, asap. Only I was looking up a sushi restaurant for us to have dinner at, so since I did not drive away immediately, she decides to go back inside "since I was not ready yet" leaving me back out in the car by myself. Great, more waiting. Annoyed and disappointed, and even more so because she does not even realize why that was upsetting to me.
Now, lets add that my 19 year old son is also in this band playing in the garage, he moved out almost 6 months ago under harsh circumstances but we have talked and try to maintain a relationship still. He never even says hello to me. He does not even make eye contact. Not a wave (which most of the rest of the band does) Nothing.
So, lately I am crushed. Cry myself to sleep at night and wonder what has all of my life been for.
If you have not experienced this yet or you were lucky enough to not have a clue what I am talking about, I am jealous. I have always been so very extrememly proud of my kids. They have never gotten into any trouble (that I know of and I am very involved) They were basically easy to raise. I always had an idea that if it was too easy in the beginning, it must get harder. Lately it has definately gotten harder.
My daughter, who is usually an angel to me has been difficult to talk to. Everytime we spend anytime together anymore we argue. She seems to have no respect for my feelings or my time. I have turned into her taxi driver or I just give her the car. For example, last night I take her to her band practice, a three hour outing. Since I feel that it is too far to drive back and forth, or to allow her to drive there alone yet, I always find something to do for the 3 hours. Last night I got there 15 minutes early. I was so happy that she quickly realized that I was there and got into the car, asap. Only I was looking up a sushi restaurant for us to have dinner at, so since I did not drive away immediately, she decides to go back inside "since I was not ready yet" leaving me back out in the car by myself. Great, more waiting. Annoyed and disappointed, and even more so because she does not even realize why that was upsetting to me.
Now, lets add that my 19 year old son is also in this band playing in the garage, he moved out almost 6 months ago under harsh circumstances but we have talked and try to maintain a relationship still. He never even says hello to me. He does not even make eye contact. Not a wave (which most of the rest of the band does) Nothing.
So, lately I am crushed. Cry myself to sleep at night and wonder what has all of my life been for.
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